IN EVERYTHING
I see you in the butterfly’s landing;
A performance seemingly just for me.
I see you in every picture.
I know exactly where you’d be.
I see you in every empty chair;
You whisper, “This seat was meant for me.”
I see you in the bluebird’s perfectly timed visit.
A message, I believe, from you to me.
I see you the moments they take notice,
Those moments are never easy.
I hear you in their giggles;
Your absence screams “what about me.”
I notice you in relationships old and new;
Your absence had a way of changing things, especially me.
I feel you in the gentle breeze;
A needed reminder there is both grief and peace within me.
I see you when they run and play;
Your absence coloring everything around me.
I see you when they say, “Let’s get Dad”;
There is always one more airplane ride to be.
I feel you in every one of their hugs;
Imagining your little arms around me.
I feel you when they kiss me goodnight;
Those sweet little kisses are missed and not just by me.
I miss you when I fold their clothes;
Who would have guessed I’d crave more laundry.
I feel you when the sun kisses my skin;
I close my eyes and imagine you here with me.
I miss you when it feels like the world has forgotten;
I”ll never get used to how this can be.
I think of you when I feel my strength;
A gift your loss has given me.
I see you, my son;
You are in everything.